I lost weight! I am under 150. I may not look that heavy. but I am. Jordan doesnt like it when I talk about my weight because I ised to have eating disorders. But now I am doing it in a more healthy way. not entirely healthy because I still try not toeat much but hey at least I eat some. And when I do eat I only eat what I must. and I eat around other people. so yea. No one suspects anything. Jordan and I are working out well. we have been dating for the first time I got back from thayer. We had sex before we were officially dating. lol. but yea. remember remember the fifth of november. (our anniversary!) yay. =] so.... jordan came over on monday night. and we were uhm... being intamate and the next thing I know I hear a car door and the music was pretty loud and so I was like "did you hear something?" and he said he thought so and I was like "was that the door bell??"

and then it clicked.

His dad was at my house and ringing my doorbell. I jumped up and looked out my window. sure enough, his dads car was in my driveway. I kept saying "fuck its your dad. fuck fuck fuck. you're not here. fuck. fuck! you're NOT here!!! FUCK!! its your DAD!! FUUUUCKKK!!!" and so we got dressed I threw on my grey sweat pants and a black hoodie with no bra and went down stairs and answered the door. I acted surprised and was like "hello??" and he said "hi!" and I was like "uhmmmmmm....." and he was like "Is Jordan with you?" and I said "Uh, I dont... have him." and before I went downstairs we were debating if he should jump out the second story window or not and so the whole time I was hoping his dad wopuldnt hear him fall out my window! and so mom came downstairs and I was like "its... Jordans dad...(?)" and so she was like "ok its cold outside why dont you come inside?" and I was thinking to myself "oh yea because this couldnt be ANY WORSE!!"

So, he asked me if he was with me and I said no. He and mom started talking and I heard a noise upstairs and i was like omg! and freaking out inside my head. and mom was like "I hate to put you on the spot but..." and I was thinking to myself "shit they're going to search for him inside the house!! they;re going to look in my room! SHIT!" and then she finished her sentence with "could you call him and see if he answers your call???" and I was like "uh..... let me get my phone..." so I went upstairs and "couldnt find my phone" (conveiniently) and right as I was looking for it jordan texted his dad that he was at the park because he went for a walk and fell asleep there. So then I was like "oh... ok" and his dad was like "sorry to wake you up. I'll let you all go back to sleep. Thank you!" and I said as he was leaving "Mr. Eggerman, can I talk to you??" and he said sure so we went outside and I told him I was REALLY sorry. and that I know I get him in a lot of trouble and that its really my fault and I stress him out a lot and basically that I was just REALLY SORRY about all of this. And he just said thats its him that makes the decisions not me. and its his fault for skipping school and being an idiot. and so I said sorry again and he said goodnight and I said goodnight and went inside. I hugged mom. then we went to bed and then I had to get jordan OUT!!!!!!

He was laying down just LOUNGING in my bathtub. I was like "GET UP!" we went into my room and got appropriatley dressed and he got ready to leave. My mom went down to the garage to smoke like usual before she left so I snuck him downstairs and practically threw him out the door. He had to like, run about a mile home.

While he was on the way to his house... I texted his dad and asked if he had seen jordan. Like seriously five seconds later he texted back just sayign "no" and so I said "can you tell me when you do get ahold of him?" and he texted back with "You mean by the neck?? Well sure I will."   lol. I laughed. then texted back "lol of course. and kick him in the shins while you're at it for me. eh... I guess this is a bad time for humor. I'm sorry." then he texted "he's back" and I said "good! thankyou!!" and he said "you're welcome" and that was the end of our convo.

uhhhhh, the Jordan texted me. He assured me he was fine and ok. then we went to bed. And oh yea, he told me his dad said "Oh, and I'm supposed to kick you in the shins..." lol. how funny.

so that was on monday night.

Lots of things have been happening since the last time I wrote. lol. I uhm... well hippie grass is a part of my life now. =]]. and I love the movie super bad.

until next time! -audios.

Here is a quick run down of this whole week.

Sunday night: Got high with Jon, Jordan, and Nicole. Super fun.

Monday night: Matt called and wanted to get high. I was down with that so, I snuck out with my sister and met Jordan, Jon, another kid named Jordan who was the driver, Matt, and Zacks brother, Josh. Thats seven people if I didnt forget anyone. It was a five seater car. lol! We got really high and we hot boxed it. Me, Nicole, Jon, and Jordan got dropped off and we hung out on the football field and walked around town. SO FUN!

After I slept for an hour I got up and texted jordan. Hey surprise! The weed was laced with COKE!

Tuseday night: Had Jordan over and cuddled. =] I love cuddling!!!

Wednesday night: Went to Coles apt. played guitar hero. Ate cake. Got baked. Almost had sex in his bathroom with Jordan. LOL.

Thursday night: Went to Coles apt. and got high. Higher than I have ever been. My entire top half was tingling. I saw everything in slow motion. Ate more cake. Jordan was there and so was Nicole. They took a video I think...

Friday night: Went to a football game. (got in free) Went to Jordans house. Found out that his dad doesnt make his bed. Met Jaws the goldfish. Locked myself in his room. He came in and threw me on the bed. Said I had to go. Went to his dads room. Threw me on his dads bed (kinky). Said I had to go. Walked down the stairs. Threw me on the couch. Stayed. ..................... Said I had to go. Left. Went back to the game. Went home. Got ready for the dance. (we were late). Jordan came over. Jean-Paul came over. I cried because my hair was ugly. Fixed my hair. Redid Make-up. Lots of perfume. Took pictures. Went to the dance. Saw Savanna. She is going to DIE. She talked crap about me. Whatever. Got home at about two. Snuck Jordan in. Had some cake and ICECREAM. then..... omg had the most amazing sex ever. lol. Moved off the bed to the floor. Tried new stuff.

Saturday DAY: Got up at seven. (went to bed at six thirty). left the house at eight. Went to st louis. (four hour drive). Three kids in the back seat. a one and a half year old. and 2 two year olds. =] CUTE!! but... they SCREAAAAAAMMMMMM!!!!!! GAH! and so... went to a band festival. Fell in love with Jayden (the one and a half year old.) Left. Got home at about eight at night. FELL ASLEEP FOR SEVENTEEN HOURS.

Yea. I didnt sleep for more than two hours at a time for the last week. I needed sleep. Ok. So, I have been so busy its not even funny. =]

YAY! My life is wonderfullllll!